The Emmers

nudiemuse:

Let us also remember that fat is not only physical but is also contextual.

In the context of the big old wide general world, a smaller fat person might not be “really” fat.

However in the smaller context of their personal world, or their culture, or their family, or where they…

This is one thing I’ve always felt out of place about in the body acceptance communities I’ve found: I am not as big as the other women (and men) I’ve encountered and at times worry that my feelings will not be taken seriously or that I don’t have a valid reason for how I feel. 

Coming from a very thin body a year ago, I am quite a bit bigger then I was. I was a 6-8US (pant sizes), putting me below the average size for the average woman. Once going on hormone pills I gained weight steadily (Not to mention my boobs expanding at least one full cupsize, I was ALREADY a 38C. I could poke an eye out with these babies) until I surpassed a size 10 and now fit in at a solid 14, even now I am still ‘under the average’ size but considered to be on the ‘edge’. I still fit into some of my old clothes but I certainly am not fitting into my old pants or dresses. Finding clothing feels like a chore, but I am still able to grab tee shirts off the rack and know it will still fit. I can still wear anything from a size medium to an XL off the rack tee shirt without having any real struggle. I still have things going pretty easily for me in comparison. So I feel as if I don’t have a right to really try to include myself.